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Name: Joel
Birthday: 10/2/1984
Gender: Male
Interests: I pray in all I do including: Ultimate Frisbee, Ping Pong, Hacky Sack, various other sports that I am less talented at, building out of whatever material is available, arts and crafts, once in a while a videogame. Reading my Bible, talking online with friends, Studying the Bible with various people online and in person, at one point creating my website. I love to create game ideas of all kinds (videogames, cardgames, board games, sport games etc.) I love to help people move as I am very good at packing a truck as well as a box and am now strong enough to lift most anything aside from the huge furniture or house appliences that either need two + people or some wheels. I also love to climb and have been known to go on walks in prayer and conversation. I enjoy showing others how to play. I work out on the Total Gym in the livingroom but rarely. I like all sorts of music as long as it has to do with God and is positive. I'm a Paladin, protector of women, children and the weak.
Expertise: Moving, Packing, Cart getting... and so I'm told... giving back/shoulder/foot rubs...
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AIM:  LegomasterJC
MSN: LegomasterJC@hotmail.com
Member Since:
6/20/2005
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| In the Chi Alpha retreat I just went on, we participated in an activity in which every single person in the whole retreat prayed for everyone else and shared whatever word they received for them. There were some I had words for and some I did not. There were some who had words for me and some who did not. I do not remember the words I gave or the words I received. I forgot them almost instantly after giving/receiving them as I was going on to the next person.
A worry of some kind jumped at me earlier today and then I remembered one of the words I was given which dispelled that worry. After which I forgot both again.
So I am sorry that I have few specifics for everyone.
What I do know is that Every word was true and encouraging, lifting me up to where I'm supposed to be and reminding me of who I am in Him and what my work is before Him.
It seems every word is a confirmation of something I have already been feeling or perhaps an answer to some questions that I've never put into words but feel in my heart.
I will attempt to remember some tidbits of what was spoken over me mostly by recent acquaintances:
"Thank You for this new breed of man"
"You're a seed planter and you don't get to see the result of your planting but you're not worried about it 'cause you know God's taking care of it."
Some other encouragements about my servant-hood, humility, spiritual strength, confidence...
The cloud of the memory of sin cleared out of my mind. It had become a focus rather than God's grace.
I talk to God throughout my day, just asking about wonderings that come to my head or thanking Him for some reminder he just gave me or parking spot etc. If at any time a question comes to me that He's already spoken to me about (usually regarding my current course, future wife etc.) He answers before that question has finished being said in my head.
Some questions I do not get answers to, I am mostly content to find out as it comes.
Questions like:
"How is that going to happen?"
"How long will that take?"
"Why this or that?"
There is something we as humans share with God:
The Glory of the Lord has much to do with His mystery.
As the mystery of the Lord is further revealed, Intimacy increases.
There is always deeper mysteries of God to delve into and thus deeper intimacy to have.
If you try to explain to someone a mystery of the Lord that He has not prepared them for,
and they have not reached that level of intimacy with Him; It is harmful rather than beautiful.
The same is true between men and women, or humanity and the spiritual beings.
As written in the Song of Solomon three times:
Do not arouse or awaken love until it so desires.
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| I do not know many of my selfs.
I think there may be a young one hurt and alone.
One who won't talk in a group about himself.
One who will play for hours on end with every ounce of energy.
One who sets his own feelings on the shelf.
I think there may be one responsible and wise
One who fights the other who gives up and gives in
One obedient, giving, waiting, going, staying
One practiced at seeking and praying
I do not have a different life at work than when I'm with others
It is when I'm alone that I fail
Fail to stop, fail to seek, fail to obey
Wisdom is repentant
Knowledge is full of fear
The child holds a grudge
The man takes step by step
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| I had a very strange dream last night. First there was one girl sleeping over at my house, and then Rhia was there too and I had a sense that there was some big event happening that people were going to the next day which was why people needed a place to stay this far north of town... anyway Rhia asks "are you sure this is ok?" to which I reply "sure, I've got this bed, my extra matress, the Futon chair, couches in the livingroom that fold out to beds, plenty of room." Then after talking for a while I start trying to go to sleep since I have school and work the next day but then more and more girls show up at my house and I'm up and running around to get blankets, sheets, pillows and get all the beds prepaired. There were 3 girls sharing my bed, 3 sharing the extra matress and a full livingroom of them too. I was just about to take the futon chair to get some rest before School/work day, knowing I wouldn't be able to hang out with anyone that day but glad I could make my house available.
Then my brother Mark came in, woke me up and started watching Karate Kid III (in real life)
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sundance didrun
limbom rundin
ickdoux hundin
roblief lasenchor debloughin
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| What spiritual works did God accomplish in the most recent season of your life?
I have prayed for a return of hunger for His word. So He stopped talking to me so much and indeed I am hungry. Now I'm working on the searching, reading, studying His word and putting down the other things that take up my time.
I now pray for the opportunity to speak into not only believer's lives with encouragement, but also into the unsaved lives around me, and that I will be prepared and take that opportunity with gladness, meekness, boldness, and wisdom and effectiveness.
These challenges have been set before me by Chi Alpha.
Disciple others:
Though I am not in the big chair in my small group, I believe I've allowed the wisdom God has given me to flow out to those in my groups and I pray for more to be done at work with believers there.
Evangelize:
I have failed in my own eyes as to how I have been an example of Love in my work place and both at school and work, I must overcome my silence.
If I have some sort of subject to teach on or ask about another person's views on, I can keep a conversation going. But with my inability to "small talk" I lack the appearance that I care or am interested in talking and so when a co-worker asks me how my day has been or how school's going, I give my shallow answer and don't even follow it up with a question about them. My attitude that work is a place for work and not conversation while we are on the clock hinders the way through the open doors I see to speak into their lives.
Prayer:
I am coming back out of a slump in my prayer life. Though it feels to me like I have a cloud between He and I and a wall and a distance, He has spoken to me on some things to come which I can not act on but only remember for when these things happen.
"I am bringing you away from Chi Alpha."
I was signing up for classes and getting frustrated that I could not find a physics class that met at a time other than XA when He said this. I am moving more into leadership and am more involved than ever in XA right now and have realized through teachings at church and XA that it has become more to me than it should be. For now, it is still a great part of my life and I learn much from my experience in it but I had to learn to let go of what I want and return to my willingness for whatever He has for me. This brings me to the second thing He's said:
"You do what you want and not what I want."
Some aspects of this apply to some things I have been doing that I shouldn't be but more importantly was my reasons for doing what I am supposed to be doing.
"Be patient" This has always been a word to me along with "Wait and see what I will do." but this time, it was a word for Justin Boyd who is sometimes disheartened by the lack of evidence of fervance and passion for seeking God in the students in XA. He continues on in how God leads him to speak to and lead Chi Alpha, and I see the seeds planted in their hearts waiting to be watered, and soiled before they bud. Those who I see in XA have had the ground of their heart tilled and ready for that seed. The ones who have visited and return to their "collage lives" have only been scratched at the surface so that they barely remember the seed that was scattered on them and blown away or eaten up. I pray for their hearts to be tilled patiently and lovingly to tear up the roots of briars and vines of thorns but soon so that their land is not dried cracked and made infirtile.
Worship:
I am sure there is a greater depth I have to go to in my worship. I pray that my diving into Him draws others to do the same. The depths of God are not like the sea of our world. Instead of becoming darker, greater in pressure and more difficult to breathe, It is brighter, relieved of pressure and a great breath of the best air.
Fellowship:
There's definitely still more work to be done on me in greeting and growing in relationship with others but I see improvement and trust His timing.
Scripture:
I love scripture. I hate memorization. I love to have it memorized though. The fruits of the Spirit are these: Love, Joy, Peace, Patience, Kindness, Goodness, Gentleness, Faithfulness and self control. Without such as these, there is no law.
And now I will show you the most excelent way:
If I have all knowledge and all wisdom but have not love, I am useless. If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels but have not love, I am a resounding gong or a clanging symbol. Love is patient, love is kind, Love does not envy, it is not proud. Love does not boast, it keeps no reccord of wrongs, Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. Love always hopes, always trusts, always protects always perseveres. Love never fails. Where there are tongues, they will cease, Prophecies will end. For now we know in part and see in part, but then we will fully see and fully know. Now there is Faith, Hope and Love, but the greatest of these is Love.
Daily put on the helmet of salvation, the belt of truth, the shield of faith, the sword of the Spirit, the Breastplate of righteousness and fit your feet with the readyness to share the gospel of peace.
Our Heavenly Father, Hallowed be your name. Your kingdom come, your will be done on earth as it is in heaven. Give us today our daily provision and lead us not into temptation but deliver us from evil for Yours is the Kingdome, the Power, and the Glory forever and ever amen.
Though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil for You are with me. Your rod (discipline) and your staff (mercy), they comfort me. You bring me to green pastures (healthy provision) and lead me beside still waters (refreshment in safety and peace). You restore my soul.
As you can see, there are still some holes in my memory with several of these scriptures and the ones I know best are the ones from youth group when I was young which I was made to memorize by the authority above me. It is difficult for me to motivate myself without the authority over me giving it to me to do. Pray for me in this.
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